When I look back at how close we all were, I wonder whether Phil somehow knew that he was going to die young. He never said those words, but he lived his life as if time was precious. Maybe he just knew what was important to him and where he wanted to invest his love. I always felt there was plenty of time, but he never lived that way. I now thank God he made us take those trips. In some ways, our short time together was almost like an entire lifetime.
Philip Seymour Hoffman's widow Mimi O'Donnell reflects on their life together and the addiction that eventually led to his death in 2014, leaving her and their three children to cope with the loss. It's as heartbreaking as you're imagining, but well worth reading.
Read: Mimi O’Donnell Reflects on the Loss of Philip Seymour Hoffman and the Devastation of Addiction